Album: Repressed Depression

It Was Written In My Soul is a collection of real‑life moments , heartbreak, pressure, connection, regret, and the grind of pushing forward. Each track shows a different part of the journey, from What’s Left (5 To 1) (“I’m takin back my peace, takin back my breath”) to chasing dreams when the world says no (“I’m running it down anyway”). It’s honest, grounded, and built on everyday emotion. These songs follow the roads you’ve taken, the people who changed you, and the lessons that stuck. It’s an album about finding strength in the middle of everything life throws your way.

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Track 01 - What’s Left (5 To 1)

Track Description: This song explores the quiet ache of waiting for real love to arrive. It follows someone who has been patient, hopeful, and open‑hearted, yet still feels overlooked as life moves forward around them. Through moments of doubt, reflection, and resilience, the story captures the longing to be seen, chosen, and understood. At its core, it’s about holding onto hope even when love feels distant, and believing that the right connection will eventually find its way through.

I gave you all my time, every chance you could need
Held on with hope even when you made my heart bleed
You kept takin and takin till I couldn’t stay
Now I’m standing here done with the games you play

I’m takin back my peace, takin back my breath
Countin down the pieces of the love you wrecked

So Thumb goes down first for the way you let me fall
Then Index folds next for pointing blame through it all
Ring drops after that for the vows you never kept
And Pinky falls last for the secrets you never met

Now there’s only one standing and I whisper under my breath
I look at my hand and say what’s left
You said forever but you meant for now
I kept hoping you’d change but you never learned how
I held on tight but you slipped through my grip
And I’m done letting heartbreak captain this ship

I’m takin back my strength, takin back my light
Counting down the reasons I’m done with this fight

So Thumb goes down first for the way you let me fall
Then Index folds next for pointing blame through it all
Ring drops after that for the vows you never kept
And Pinky falls last for the secrets you never met
Now there’s only one standing and I whisper under my breath
I look at my hand and say what’s left

Four fall away like the love you never gave
And the one left standing is the truth I couldn’t save
You can call it closure or call it self‑respect
But it’s the only sign you ever seemed to get

So Thumb goes down first for the way you let me fall
Then Index folds next for pointing blame through it all
Ring drops after that for the vows you never kept
And Pinky falls last for the secrets you never met
Now only Middle stands tall like the truth you can’t forget
I look at my hand and say that’s what’s left

Lyrics

Track Description: This song is about feeling a pull toward someone you can’t pursue. Every time she’s around, something in you shifts — the look she gives, the way she laughs, the way her presence hits harder than it should. You keep trying to push the feeling down, but it keeps coming back. It’s the truth you carry quietly: you want her, but you know you can’t.

Track 02 - Can’t Shake Her From My Mind
Lyrics

There’s a look she gives that hits me where I stand
Stops me in my tracks like I lost my plan
She’s not trying to do it, she’s just living her day
But something in her presence gets me anyway

I try to bury these feelings deep inside
But they rise up again, no matter how I try

I want her but I can’t
She’s a fire I feel from across the room
A quiet pull I can’t explain
A truth I shouldn’t chase but it’s still true
Something in me shifts every time she’s near
Yeah I want her
But I can’t

She laughs in a way that hits harder than it should
And I feel that warmth more than I ever would
I try to shake it off, try to let it fade
But she’s the kind of feeling that’s built to stay

I try to bury these feelings deep inside
But they rise up again, no matter how I try

I want her but I can’t
She’s a fire I feel from across the room
A quiet pull I can’t explain
A truth I shouldn’t chase but it’s still true
Something in me shifts every time she’s near
Yeah I want her
But I can’t

Maybe in another life, another place, another time
But not this road, not this day, not this life of mine

I want her but I can’t
So I tuck those feelings deep where they won’t show
But every time she smiles again
It hits me harder than she’ll ever know

Track 03 - I Want Her But I Can’t

Track Description: This song is about dealing with a boss who drains the room the second he walks in. He talks down, takes credit, and brings drama, but you’re done letting his attitude run your day. It’s about keeping your peace, knowing your worth, and pushing through the noise. No matter how much pressure he throws, he’s not breaking your boots — you’re standing your ground and moving forward.

Lyrics

Clock hits nine, I’m grindin’
Boss walks in, still whinin’
Actin’ like the whole world’s fallin’
’Cause his coffee ain’t the right kind
I’m out here pullin’ double
He’s out here makin’ trouble
But I ain’t lettin’ his drama kill my vibe

He talks down like he owns me
But that doesn’t control me

I’m done letting his moods decide my day
I’m done shrinking every time he looks my way
If he can’t see the work I put in
That’s on him, not on me
I’m keeping my head up, keeping my peace
Walking right past all the noise he brings
He can push, he can snap, he can brood
But he ain’t gonna break my boots

He loves to take the credit
For work I did, yeah, I said it
Talks big about “leadership”
But never backs a word of it
I’m learning not to take it personal
I’m learning what I deserve
Turning all his pressure into strength I didn’t know I had the nerve

He talks down like he owns me
But that doesn’t control me

I’m done letting his moods decide my day
I’m done shrinking every time he looks my way
If he can’t see the work I put in
That’s on him, not on me
I’m keeping my head up, keeping my peace
Walking right past all the noise he brings
He can push, he can snap, he can brood
But he ain’t gonna break my boots

One day he’ll realize
I was the one holding things together
But by then I’ll be long gone
Somewhere I’m valued, somewhere I matter

I’m done letting his moods decide my day
I’m done shrinking every time he looks my way
If he can’t see the work I put in
That’s on him, not on me
I’m keeping my head up, keeping my peace
Walking right past all the noise he brings
He can push, he can snap, he can brood
But he ain’t gonna break my boots

Track 04 - Written in My Soul

Track Description: This song is about a connection that hit you deeper than you expected. You weren’t looking for anything big, but this person showed up and changed the way your days felt. The lyrics follow how they broke through your walls, made life lighter, and felt like something that was meant long before you realized it. It’s about recognizing a feeling that feels built‑in — like it was already written in your soul before you ever said a word.

Lyrics

I wasn’t looking for forever
Just trying to make it through each day
But then you walked into my life
And everything shifted the right way
You made me see what I was missing
You made something in me finally listen
You made the hard days feel light
You made the moment feel right

I tried to play it cool
Act like I wasn’t falling
But every time you smiled
My guard kept dropping

It was written in my soul
long before it reached me
Something deep inside
was already meant to be
Before I said a word,
the feeling stayed with me
Something in me knew the path
before I learned to be
It was written in my soul
No matter where I go
Every road leads back to you
Yeah, it’s written in my soul

I used to run from every feeling
Never let anyone get close
But you broke through without trying
Reached the parts I never show
Made the lonely feel lighter
Made my emptiness feel gone
Made the moment feel real
You became the place I lean on

I tried to take it slow
Tried not to let it show
But every time you’re near
I swear my soul just knows

It was written in my soul
long before it reached me
Something deep inside
was already meant to be
Before I said a word,
the feeling stayed with me
Something in me knew the path
before I learned to be
It was written in my soul
No matter where I go
Every road leads back to you
Yeah, it’s written in my soul

I never planned on feeling this
Never thought it’d hit this strong
And every time you’re near me
It pulls me in where I belong

It was written in my soul
long before it reached me
Something deep inside
was already meant to be
Before I said a word,
the feeling stayed with me
Something in me knew the path
before I learned to be
It was written in my soul
No matter where I go
Every road leads back to you
Yeah, it’s written in my soul

Track 05 - Grass Ain’t Greener

Track Description: This song is about leaving something good behind because you thought you needed space, only to realize you walked away from the best thing you had. Every mile you chased felt empty, and by the time you understood what you lost, she had already moved on. It’s a straight‑up lesson learned too late — the grass wasn’t greener, and now you can’t go back home.

Lyrics

I packed my bags thinkin' I needed space
Chased some wild idea I’d find a better place
Told myself the world was callin' out my name
But every mile I drove just felt the same

Thought freedom meant leavin' what we had behind
Didn’t know I’d lose the one thing worth my time

Turns out the grass ain’t greener on the other side
It’s just empty nights and nothing where my heart should hide
I walked away from somethin' real, thought I needed room to roam
Now I’m facin' down the truth I should’ve always known
She’s moved on, found a life that don’t include my name
And it’s too late
Yeah, it’s too late to come back home

I still see her silhouette in my mind
The way she’d wait for me every single time
I figured I’d return when I felt ready someday
Didn’t think she’d be the one who’d turn and walk away

Now I’m facin' down the truth I tried to hide
You don’t know what you’ve got till it’s not by your side

Turns out the grass ain’t greener on the other side
It’s just empty nights and nothing where my heart should hide
I walked away from somethin' real, thought I needed room to roam
Now I’m facin' down the truth I should’ve always known
She’s moved on, found a life that don’t include my name
And it’s too late
Yeah, it’s too late to come back home

She’s laughin' now with someone new
And I’m the ghost of what she once held onto
I can’t blame her for lettin' go
I’m the one who told her so

Turns out the grass ain’t greener on the other side
Just a lesson learned too late in life
I had a good thing and I let it go
Now I’m livin' with a heart that’ll always know
She’s moved on, found a life that don’t include my name
And it’s too late
Yeah, it’s too late to come back home

Track 06 - Break My Boots

Track Description: Track Description: This song is about dealing with a boss who drains the room the second he walks in. He talks down, takes credit, and brings drama, but you’re done letting his attitude run your day. It’s about keeping your peace, knowing your worth, and pushing through the noise. No matter how much pressure he throws, he’s not breaking your boots — you’re standing your ground and moving forward.

Lyrics

Clock hits nine, I’m grindin’
Boss walks in, still whinin’
Actin’ like the whole world’s fallin’
’Cause his coffee ain’t the right kind
I’m out here pullin’ double
He’s out here makin’ trouble
But I ain’t lettin’ his drama kill my vibe

He talks down like he owns me
But that doesn’t control me

I’m done letting his moods decide my day
I’m done shrinking every time he looks my way
If he can’t see the work I put in
That’s on him, not on me
I’m keeping my head up, keeping my peace
Walking right past all the noise he brings
He can push, he can snap, he can brood
But he ain’t gonna break my boots

He loves to take the credit
For work I did, yeah, I said it
Talks big about “leadership”
But never backs a word of it
I’m learning not to take it personal
I’m learning what I deserve
Turning all his pressure into strength I didn’t know I had the nerve

He talks down like he owns me
But that doesn’t control me

I’m done letting his moods decide my day
I’m done shrinking every time he looks my way
If he can’t see the work I put in
That’s on him, not on me
I’m keeping my head up, keeping my peace
Walking right past all the noise he brings
He can push, he can snap, he can brood
But he ain’t gonna break my boots

One day he’ll realize
I was the one holding things together
But by then I’ll be long gone
Somewhere I’m valued, somewhere I matter

I’m done letting his moods decide my day
I’m done shrinking every time he looks my way
If he can’t see the work I put in
That’s on him, not on me
I’m keeping my head up, keeping my peace
Walking right past all the noise he brings
He can push, he can snap, he can brood
But he ain’t gonna break my boots

Lyrics

Track Description: This song is about the grind of constant travel — long drives, late nights, rough roads, and the feeling of being worn down but still pushing forward. You’re moving from town to town, running on less, missing home, and doing your best to stay steady through the exhaustion. It’s the truth of having miles on you but still holding your ground and keeping going.

Track 07 - Miles On Me

Another small town, same old look
Different street, same worn book
Checking in late, checking out quick
Living out a bag, one long trip
People think I’m built for nonstop pace
They don’t see nights I’m out of place
I keep moving even when I feel beat
Trying to stay level, losing sleep

Hard roads, dust rising in my face
Long nights, no comfort, no safe place
Hands rough, calloused from the grind
Every mile leaves another mark behind

I got miles on me, it hits my chest
Town to town, no time to rest
I’m tired, I don’t fall back
I keep pushing, road turns black
I got miles on me, I hold ground
Trying to get home, safe and sound
Not empty — running on less
Still here, doing my best

Another long drive, another late crowd
Trying to stay sharp, folks get loud
Shake hands, smile, out the door
Back to the highway I’ve seen before
I miss home more than I let kick
Trying to stay strong, nights feel thick
I keep going even when I feel worn
Trying to stay strong through every storm

Hard roads, dust rising in my face
Long nights, no comfort, no safe place
Hands rough, calloused from the grind
Every mile leaves another mark behind

I got miles on me, it hits my chest
Town to town, no time to rest
I’m tired, I don’t fall back
I keep pushing, road turns black
I got miles on me, I hold ground
Trying to get home, safe and sound
Not empty — running on less
Still here, doing my best

Gas low, dashboard warning light
Eyes heavy, chasing through the night
Wind cold, cutting through my skin
I keep rolling, waiting for the dawn to begin

No spotlight, no hiding
Work steady, just driving

Long nights, cold mornings
Still here, still going

I got miles on me, it hits my chest
Town to town, no time to rest
I’m tired, I don’t fall back
I keep pushing, road turns black
I got miles on me, I hold ground
Trying to get home, safe and sound
Not empty — running on less
Still here, doing my best

Track 08 - Running It Down Anyway

Track Description: This song is about refusing to slow down when you know exactly what you’re chasing. Every setback, every doubt, and every “you can’t” becomes fuel. You’ve taken hits, learned from the hard moments, and built your drive from real experience. It’s about pushing through long nights, staying steady when the road gets rough, and proving you’re going to keep moving forward no matter who tries to hold you back. It’s determination in its simplest form — running your path down anyway.

Lyrics

They said slow down, take it easy
But my heart don’t work that way
Got a plan in my head and a fire that’s rising
Chasing dreams day after day

Every “no” just turns to a reason
Every doubt just fades away
If the road gets rough, I get back up
Yeah, I’m running it down anyway

They say the climb gets steep
But that’s where I find my feet

I’m gonna push through the hard times
Shine when the lights drop low
Hold my ground on the long nights
My tank’s full and ready to go
Dreams don’t wait for perfect
So I won’t look away
If the world says “no,” I say “watch me”
I’m running it down anyway

Got a few scars, yeah, I earned ’em
And they show under these stage lights
Every stumble taught me timing
Every setback taught me fight

I don’t need a straight‑line highway
I’ll take the long‑way lane
If the storm rolls in, I’ll step right in
’Cause I’m running it down anyway

They say the climb gets steep
But that’s where I find my feet

I’m gonna push through the hard times
Shine when the lights drop low
Hold my ground on the long nights
My tank’s full and ready to go
Dreams don’t wait for perfect
So I won’t look away
If the world says “no,” I say “watch me”
I’m running it down anyway

Every mile, every moment
Every “you can’t” that I’ve heard
Just makes me stronger, bolder
I’m proving every word

I’m gonna push through the hard times
Shine when the lights drop low
Hold my ground on the long nights
My tank’s full and ready to go

Dreams don’t wait for perfect
So I won’t look away
If the world says “no,” I say “watch me”
I’m running it down anyway

Track 09 - Driving That Lonely Road

Track Description: This song is about clearing your head on a long, quiet drive. It’s just you, the open sky, and the miles rolling under you while you work through the things you can’t shake. The road feels lonely, but it’s also where you start letting go, little by little. Even with the memories and the silence hitting hard, you keep moving forward. It’s about finding your way at your own pace while driving that lonely road.

Lyrics

Driving that lonely road
Sky wide open
Wind in my face
Thoughts unspoken
Miles keep moving
Heart still broken
Driving that lonely road
Nothing spoken

Driving that lonely road
Trying to feel alive
No one here beside me
Just the hum and the drive
Every turn reminds me
Of the things I can’t hide
Driving that lonely road
Still surviving inside

Lines on the pavement
Glow in the night
Radio low
Soft little light
Thinking of moments
We didn’t get right
Driving that lonely road
Holding tight

Driving that lonely road
Trying to feel alive
No one here beside me
Just the hum and the drive
Every turn reminds me
Of the things I can’t hide
Driving that lonely road
Still surviving inside

Sometimes the quiet
Cuts too deep
Sometimes the memories
Don’t let me sleep
But I keep rolling
Up this steep

Driving that lonely road
But I’m finding my way
Letting go slowly
Day by day
Rain or shine
I’ll be okay
Driving that lonely road
Still choosing to stay

Track 10 - When the Rain Touches Us
Lyrics

Track Description: A gentle, emotional song built around the feeling of rain — warm and soft during the day, deeper and more intimate at night. It follows two people slowing down, getting close, and feeling safe together as the rain shifts around them. The track stays simple, calm, and romantic, focusing on connection and the way rain makes every moment feel more real.

Rain in the day
Warm on your skin
Light on your hair
Soft as it begins

You look at me
And I fall in
Daytime rain
Pulls me in

Every drop
Feels like truth
Every breath
Feels brand new

When the rain touches us
We slow down
We get close
We let the world fade out
Day or night
We feel it now
When the rain touches us
We both drown
In love somehow

Rain in the night
Cold on the glass
Lights on the street
Shining as they pass

You lean on me
Let the moment last
Nighttime rain
Hits so fast

Every drop
Feels like truth
Every breath
Feels brand new

When the rain touches us
We slow down
We get close
We let the world fade out

Day or night
We feel it now
When the rain touches us
We both drown
In love somehow

Rain can calm
Rain can break
Rain can heal
Rain can take
But with you
It all feels safe

When the rain touches us
We stay here
We stay real
We stay clear
Day or night
You’re always near
When the rain touches us
I feel you
Right here